my NOW is beautiful

My journey all this while has been stupendous.

The only thing that rushes between the heart and the mind is thoughts..

Whatever i ever ran from, stood right in front of my eyes running through my veins, though luckily it never had a chance to miss me.

I had found my calling this time!! i learned to accept life, the bitter truths, the harsh realities.

While i was away from this calling, I learned swimming, kayaking, quilling paper art, exercising so i can touch my feet standing, i learned to wear warmest jacket in winters, i learned things about my own self too ...  Road ahead is singing, some instrument maybe and Tattoo.

My guilt got me pain, but it brought me closer to life when i set my thoughts freed. Joy of life dznt come only from human relationships. It is the light within that gives u the spark. Well right said in "Into the wild", when you forgive, you love. I HAVE BEEN COURAGEOUS ENOUGH TO FORGIVE.

Everyone around me is so proud of what i have become as a person NOW. 

I feel i am liberated...not running, not knowing, not so interested in materials, just peace by my side.

Wait!!! i am yet to live~~

Life is moving on so fast....

It just seems like yesterday i was playing video game with ankit(my brother). Just yesterday i went to college and attended my 2 hour accounts class. Just yesterday i had that chola bhatura session with my friends at kamla nagar market. And i almost ran in that college alley to catch a glimpse of the guy my best friend is dating. Just yesterday i went to buy that 'kunji' for final year college exams. arre, yesterday only i made ankit buy woodland sheos from my first salary. it was yesterday......

Life is moving so fast or have i forgot to keep track!!! Everything seems to slipping away....and this time it is running... A few moments back i tried to hold it, and i opened my eyes and it turned to day called today, WAIT!!!!   i just asked time to stop for a while......................feels i am in some futuristic time machine!!!

WAIT......... ammmm...ehhhh......
....i am yet to sing few more songs....
....i am yet to crack my alltime fav PJs....
....i am yet to cycle along the river and dive in the sky.....
....i am yet to understand the last thumri of the song i heard from ruchi.....
....i am yet to pamper ankit a lot......
....i am yet to design the wall of my house.....
....i am yet to work abroad for some years with everyone i promised with....
Wait...................................... .... .... i am yet to live my life!!!
Time....can i pause you for a while???  for these little dreams make a person that i am!!!!!
Sigh~~

How I GOT LEH'D

It was a beautiful afternoon with sun spreading its wings throwing the temprature to 36 degrees... and i recieved a lovely call while i was rushing to release myself....dnt think too much!

Sandhya, my friend from school since class 5th i guess, had called. Also we shared a common platform at being the sub-editor of school magazine. she had called to spread hapiness in my boring eat-pray-love-work routine. She had called to LEH me :)

This was first trip for which i said a YES without thinking twice, like in bollywood movies the owner of crores of property signs the 'Will' looking at the face of the other person. I had to leave 3 days later which also required me to take leave of half a week from newly joined work.

My brain horses started competing. My work had to go for printing after 2 days, so office wasnt prepared to let go of me, my smart boss had all plans for me for the next week, but i could manage to deliver all my work to the best, enough to elate him to the depths of satisfaction. hence, office chutti approved.

Since i came back from mumbai, delhi seemed lonely and lame to me, for my close pals are married and settled in mumbai. The purpose of this trip was ideally to make a visit to much talked about place and obviously to feel better after my another best pal leaves the city. So, I left office an hour early to spend little time with the departing mate at my fav place where music and people rock the place, and luckily it was a live soft rock evening at blues with some hot CHICKS doing the rounds. hence, an evening well spent!

I had enough mixed feelings, of saying goodbye's to my sestah who was leaving for london and to my best pal who was leaving delhi for ever, that while packing clothes for leh i ended up taking all Blues on the trip only to realize and figure out on the trip what have i done.

This was the first time when i cdnt pack the clothes till 1am while i had to leave mrng at 6am. With all the mixed feelings i packed and waited for the night to pass, to see a shower ridden green and clean delhi before i leave. Finally i picked sandy on the way to airport, and the sinking feelings had begun to evade. i forgot i have lot many close people whom i call friends, still left in delhi :))

Finally i was on the flight to Leh to get Leh'd (as simple as it sounds :P) and experience the lanscape most talked about, see glaciers ridden mountains, be on some heights which they call as Chang La or Khardung La, feel the love of Donkeys-dogs-people, meet new souls and make some friends, be with myself and on top of all attend the Ladakh Festival!

Leh i would love to get Leh'd again! it was just awesome!! Everytime u dnt have to post what happened in Leh, there is Before and After too :P

random

i have been floating wd emotions with the advent of winters....
summers marked the pretty season..winters are here to shine. i seem to have had my fill with almost everything..but i strive for more each moment.....here is my now and then..xx
sitting pretty in the lobby of my house feels diff each day each passing moment.. i sit here waiting for voices from the road 'phool paudhe' / 'sabzi le lo..aalo gobhi bhindi gazar' or be it 'chain vala'..its a diff voice every 15mins. i have been listening to them over some months now. they come at diff times and their voices differ every second time they shout their product.
thats how life is. i am sitting and writing but wasnt doing the same yesterday. i didnt get the same call.. mum didnt ask me to eat sweets.. sun wasnt this bright.. such is my life. its moving on though with similar instances.
last winters i was happy to spend winters home but this regular feature year and year again is making me vulnerable to negate. however, human is such a contradictory creature. i feel this sadness or lonliness but keep myself busy with the company of others, sing along the shores of thoughts, dance with terrenze from nachle ve :). its so wierd these many repeatedly clicks on the facebook log-in doesn't call for service however my desktop went for service twice.
the jobs and trips, the shopping and hopping, merries and cherries, diners club or barbeque nation, everything seems to be on hold. but i move on merrily unnoticing and keeping my steps on the stairs of positivity.
i am waiting for times to change for it is not far. amen!

will i go on a trip?

ages have passed
miles i have walked
almost a ton plans
thousands of dreams
lots of shopping done
still i sit on side of my bed wondering, will i go on a trip?

sitting pretty in my travel dress..
flipping thru the pages of lonely planet...
i travel with the lines written..
pictures make me believe i am right thr..
feeling of travel is sufficing me right now~

next on agenda is to travel.. :D

charger aur uske maalik ki vyatha~

चार्जेर और उसके मालिक की व्यथा :
बेचारा मेरा चार्जेर
वो कहाँ गया, मुझे भूल गया,
छोड़ गया वो मोड़ गया!
बंधा बंधा सा रहता था वो,
अपने आप में सिमटा सिमटा सा रहता था वो,
खोज लाओ बोझ लाओ
मेरे चार्जेर को ढूंढ लाओ!
उसके बगैर अधूरा सा है मेरा फ़ोन
ना msg ना मिस फ़ोन
उफ़ मेरा चार्जेर!!
कितने प्यार से इलेक्ट्रिसिटी की सूली पे चढ़ जाता था वो,
न चिल्लाता न शोर मचाता था वो,
खोज लाओ, ले के आओ,
छोड़ गया वो मोड़ गया~

Provoked thoughts

Have we ever thought who came first?
The aryans or the harappan culture or lord rama and krishna or the mughals?
how many of us really knows who came first?
evidences reveal a different story of its own.
Is it real or just our belief?
according to me the era progressed like this -
the harappan culture - aryans - lord rama krishna - mughals - us!

also i have doubts as to how Yuga's came into picture?
Satyug - Dwaparyug - Tretayug - Kalyug
How were the years decided and segregated into yuga's?
Did all submerge in water before the start of each age that we call 'Pralay'?
If yes, how exactly are we finding evidences of each era?

Long live my Thinking planet!!

a chunk of punk'

i blog, i slog.
i hear, i swear,
pls bear! pls bear!
i sit a bit and stand on hand
expressed here is a different spend!
i walked a way in a different sway
a view with dew as green as is seen!
may it bring the hope to ring
happiness to sing along the wing!
Cheers!

Starting afresh

Last 5 yrs of work felt like a cakewalk. My last day at work is 9may officially today.
Now am taking time off to figure things out.
And the question remains the same year after year - whats next?
and thinking planet is where you'll find me next.. :)

Goa Rocks!!

Almost after 2 years 2 months i thought of writing about two of my extra-enthu goa trips combined together in 1 post.. the after effect has already been shared in previous posts.. cnt believe i met the same guy after 2 yrs and the story continues.. :D

Goa Rocks indeed...
DAY1: On a sunny afternoon of 9 mar we landed into the place where romance is in the air, beaches are in the heart, music is in the soul, parties are in the night, life is on a roll!!
As soon as we landed, we were whisked away to the resort mello rosa in arpora. There we saw the pool and without wasting much time, each one of us dived into the pool to relax. As it was the place of my dreams, so i took special care to dress accordingly for the land of beaches. our sightseeing expedition began with a ride to calangute market and nearby places. We were quite happy with the grand jump start of the trip, so to suffice our hunger we found a nicely made up place with dim lights, a beautifully self written menu and mint hooka on the rocks!! The place read 'Oyes and Balti' at calangute. our resort also had a little pool side party in the evening. so we sat for a while and dozed off for the day.

we asked the hotel reception for flee markets open during your stay. Anjuna and mapusa flee mrkts are famous ones.
{The flea market (called Mackies) are a collection of shops; distributed in 3 parallel lines; with a partition for eatables and an elevated stage/circular area for performances. The wares on sale include clothes, trinkets, paper products, leather goods etc. You get good hang of goa stuff there. The food stalls offer food of different countries.}

DAY2: Today was the beach day and being more adventurous; we took bikes to help our sightseeing. We started by driving to Baga Beach, a complete eye candy place and for water sports. After satying ourselves with a light breakfast at a shack we jumped into the water. Para-sailing(700 per person) and water scooter(700 for 15 mins) are two good sports there.
i hired the services of a tattoo artist also and the guys laid down for some massage. Honestly, para-sailing was not on my itinerary, but I guess it attracted me. Post this, we set off in the direction of Calangute beach. The beach being a little crowded, insisted us to head to another destination, the lighthouse(where portions of khamoshi were shot). A dream place where there is sea on 3 sides and experience of a lifetime. This is the place where goa ends. We climbed down to the little mandir type thing and stood there for a long time.
Then, we headed towards Ford Aguada (where portions of Dil Chahta Hai have been shot); enjoyed the view of the sea while sitting and singing on the walls of the fort until a little dark. The waves carry reflections of lights with them, and crash into the fort walls, is a must watch. Its an awesome romantic place :P. Finally, we had dinner at a french restaurent wherein a beautiful lady was singing in open air restaurant. Not to mention the singer with us couldn't resist singing his favorite "you fill up my senses - annies song".

It took another 4 hours for our excitement to die that day as we came back, bathe and headed to Club Cabbana. Arguably the best night club!! The idea is very simple pay a cover charge and all liquor inside is on the house. There are multiple open areas available with comfortable & reclining chairs of all kinds and a make out place. One can choose to sit by the poolside, the bar area, outside the dance floor etc..We chose a location in corner and enjoyed a beautiful view of the dazzling lights in the city. Oh, I forgot to mention that the club is located at a height and calls itself 'Night Club in the Sky'!!
You may even try tito's or mambo's. Or you may check in the weekly magazine that almost every shopkeeper in calangute has. check which all parties are being held at that time (we got tht magazine at oyes and balti, calangute).

DAY3: Today was another beach day. We covered Vagator, anjuna, panjim, dona paula, candolim, fort chapora (moving from top to bottom beaches in noth goa only). This was followed by boat cruise we embarked in the evening from panjim. The upper deck was open and a bit chilly towards the later part of the evening. Its a 2 hr cruise whose end depends on the time of cruise you select. first ship leaves at around 6 pm. En-route, we actually encountered smthng never thought of. we got caught by thullas on highway to panjim as guys werent wearing helmets. Oh yes, on the way we also passed the Mallaya Mansion; palatial bungalow of the King of Good Times.
Being a wednesday, it was ladies night at 'club cabbana'. Without much thought we again landed in the same club. We saw females from every hook corner of the world in every possible attire..max sexy females..fire show..attention catchers (poured beer on themselves..jumped into the pool..seducing..you name it..they do it) ..everything was well organized. We had great time and decided to call it a day only past 2 am. The experience was really one of a kind.

DAY4: This day we spared to the south goa. Visited citade-de-goa to munch something. we went for a nice lunch with wine, feni and fish. There are lot of churches in south goa you can explore. south goa is not at all commercialised. there is also a hotel in middle of the sea where you stay in for the whole day. After a lazy lunch at 5, we headed towards exploring calangute again to get anchor tattoo done, pick soveniers for friends and family. A local wine shop helped us pick up some wares which would provide fond memories of Goa.

The last few hours were spent chilling on the beachfront; over more food and drink and reminiscing how fast the last few days had flown. The city leads a life like theres no tomorrow. There are sections where you'll probably see more white skin than Brown. Its common to see junta walking on the streets with a bottle of Kingfisher or Breezer in Hand. Vijay Mallyas UB has painted the town red with KINGFISHER. People have no sense of direction or distance. When asked for approximate distances they say: 5 or 10 km from here. Nobody is in any kind of hurry to do anything, get anywhere. City lives upto its name of being chilled ever!!!

So, GO GOA!!!!!!!